This is the secret! It is, it is! It cannot be anything else.

"people bring all kinds of agendas to these things. and I don't know whether people wanna talk philosophy or recipes. I don't know whether they wanna talk politics or, you know, share experiences. so I want to, just in order to make sure we all understand the domain we're operating from here, I would like to talk a little about what it's like to be loaded. because I think that's ground zero of what we're talking about. psychedelics are like any other social phenomena – there are a lot of wannabes...my notion of the psychedelic cosmogony – if you want to think of it that way – is it's like a bulls-eye. it's like a series of concentric circles. and various substances place you in various quadrants of that mandala at various distances from ground zero, which is at the absolute center.

...my attitude was always a 'show me' attitude. I don't believe in faith. I don't believe in belief. my favorite gospel story is the story of the apostle Thomas, who was not present when Christ came the first time after the resurrection to the upper room...my conclusion about this story is that alone among all humanity and all times and places, only one person every touched the incorporeal body of God. Thomas the doubter touched because he doubted.
it was not necessary that the believers should be vouch safe to such a boon, but the doubter was awarded the supreme enlightenment.

...Alladin's lamp is real. fairyland is real. magic is real – in the most real sense! in the same sense that what we call reality is real. and I learned this through this compound. and one of the great puzzles about this compound is why more people don't know about it.
no, no brotherhood initiated me. no lineage reaching back to the fall of Atlantis brought me in to its circle. therefore, I feel completely free to say anything I want. nobody has ever come to me and said, 'you are spilling the beans, you are telling the secret.'
a long long time ago – and, you know, we all have different opinions, this is mine, I hope it doesn't offend – but a long long time ago I took an oath to tell all secrets that came my way. don't tell me a secret, I won't keep it. I'm against secrets. I'm against hierarchies, lineages... all assumption of special knowledge on the part of anyone in the presence of anyone else is abhorrent to me. I mean, I'm a true anarchist first and foremost."

so, DMT, like all things in this world, has a physical body – a presence and a presentation. in this case it looks rather like earwax. it is orange. it is crystalline. it smells vaguely of moth balls. and for my money, it is the lapis, the quintessence, the universal panacea at the end of time has sent a reflection back through the temporal labyrinth, and wherever this touches, where ever this concresses, the mystery is fully present. so what is it, then? well, it's an experience, and I maintain it's the most intense experience you can have this side of the yawning grave, without doubt. I mean, people say 'is it dangerous?' well, the answer is 'only if you fear death by astonishment.' yes, that's a joke here. it's not a joke there, because you find yourself literally holding your heart to verify that you have not, in fact, had a coronary thrombosis induced by wonder, terror, reverence, and astonishment.

so, here it is. the quintessence, the orange thing. was it transponded in from Arcturus? was it handed down through some ancient eldritch brotherhood that found this secret before the pyramids were built? who can say? whatever it is, wherever it comes from, here's what happens when you allow it to pass through the blood-brain barrier of your own alchemical vessel which is your body.

the first thing that happens is that there is a sense as though all the air in the room had been sucked out. all the colors brightened. this is that increase in visual acuity that I made so much of yesterday. all edges become sharp. distant things stand out in their clarity. this is at one toke. at two tokes, you close your eyes, you feel a sense of anesthesia seeping through your body. you close your eyes and you see a floral pattern rotating in space, usually yellow-orange. people who do this occasionally – and nobody does it a lot – call it 'the chrysanthemum'. it's a floral pattern like a pattern in a Chinese brocade. this forms and stabilizes and then you either break through it, or you require one more toke. and these are matters of physiology, shamanic intent, so forth and so on. the leather lunged hash smokers among us have a leg up in this department. this is a spiritual discipline where the ability not to cough makes the difference between shunyata and, you know, 'try again, Sam.'

so, you take, let us assume a third toke, long and slow through a glass pipe. you vaporize this stuff. you don't mix it with weed or oregano or any of that which was done in the past. you want the pure stuff. ynd you take it in and in and in and there is definitely somewhere in here a threshold. a threshold which you must exceed. and when you do that, this membrane-like thing, this chrysanthemum will actually part and there is a sound like the crumpling of a plastic bread wrapper, or the crackling of flame. a friend of mine says 'this is the radio entelechy of your soul exiting through the anterior fontanelle at the top of your head.' could be! in any case, this crackling sound and a tone – a tone – a [hum changing from low to high pitch] – and then there's this impression of transition. and you're now 20 seconds deep into this experience. there's an impression of transition. it's as though there were a series of tunnels or chambers that you are tumbling down, being propelled by some kind of muscle behind you that is pushing you. I mean, yes, birth canal, yes yes of course. but anyway, a tunnel. and what I've noticed about this tunnel is the walls and ceiling flux and come down to meet each other and where they touch, they pull apart with a [makes a sucking sound]. and then you're propelled into the next space, and then the next, and then the next, and there is this [repeats the sucking sound] – right. and then you are 'there'.

and this is what I want to talk to you about, because of all communities – I hope perhaps collectively, singly – someone can say something enlightening about this. then you are there. and where is 'there'? it's underground. how you know this you cannot say, but there is an irreconcilable sense of enormous mass surrounding you. in other words, you are underground. you're at the center of a mountain or something. and you're in a room which aficionados call 'the dome' and people will ask each other 'did you see the dome? were you there?' it's softly lit, indirectly lit, and the walls – if such they be – are crawling with geometric hallucinations: very brightly colored, very iridescent with deep sheens and very high reflective surfaces. everything is machine-like and polished and throbbing with energy.

but that is not what immediately arrests my attention. what arrests my attention is the fact that this space is inhabited – that the immediate impression as you break into it, is there is a cheer. the gnomes have learned a new way to say 'hoooooray!' you break in to this space and are immediately swarmed by squeaking, self-transforming elf-machines. these things which are made of light, and grammar, and sound that come chirping, and squealing, and tumbling toward you. and they say 'hooray! welcome! you're here!' and in my case, 'you sent so many and you come so rarely.' and my immediate impression, no matter how many times I do this – and I've done it maybe 30 or 40 times which isn't a lot in a lifetime of worshiping it – my immediate impression is that they are welcoming. there is something going on which I over the years come to call 'LUV' – L U V. not 'light utility vehicle' but LUV. that is not like Eros or not like sexual attraction, I don't know what it's like exactly. it's almost like a physical thing. it's like a glue that pours out into this space. and my immediate impression in there is, I'm appalled. I'm appalled at how far I've come.

and one of the strange things about DMT is that it does not affect your mind in an ordinary sense. in that, you know, drugs they make you giggly, they frighten you, they stimulate you, they depress you. DMT does none of this. you go to that place with all your groceries. you're there, and you're there thinking 'Jesus H fucking Christ, what is this? what is it?!' and you're thinking 'I must be dead, I've done it this time.' the psychedelic mantra: 'I've done it this time. I must be dead!' and so you, you know, you think 'heart, heart? yes, hmm, heart, hmm, hmm. pulse, pulse? yes, yes.'

and meanwhile these things are literally in your face. and what they do is they jump into your chest and then they jump out again. and what they're doing – and this is the point I think – what they're doing is they are singing, chanting, speaking in some kind of language that is very bizarre to hear. but what is far more important is that you can see it. they speak in a language which you see. and this is completely confounding! because syntax is not something you ordinarily reach out and touch. and in this space that’s what happening.

and so like jeweled self-dribbling basketballs, these things come running forward. and what they are doing with this visible language that they create, is they are making gifts – they are making gifts for you. and they will say [language disassociated from meaning] which condenses as something that looks like a cross between a Sopwith Camel, a Havana cigar, a piece of abalone, an opal, and a nookie, and they offer it to you! and you're looking at this thing, and as you look at it, it also transforms, changes, speaks, sings, undergoes metastasis, undergoes metamorphosis. and these things are just accumulating. and each elf-machine creature elbows others aside, says 'look at this, look at this, take this, choose me!'

and as you direct your attention into these things, you have the overwhelming conviction that if you could bring a single one of these objects back to this world, that somehow you wouldn't have to say anything. you would just walk up to people and say 'friend'. and people would say 'oh my god! you got a piece of the action, the real action!'

this state of ecstatic frenzy – and it's like a bugs bunny cartoon running backwards in cyberspace or something – this state of incredible frenzy goes on for about three minutes, and all the time the elves are saying 'don't give way to wonder! do not abandon yourself to amazement! pay attention, pay attention! look at what we're doing! look – at – what – we're – doing!' and then 'do it, do it!' and it's this thing where then everything stops and they wait and you feel like a torch, a spark, lit in your belly that begins to move up your esophagus.

and eventually when it reaches your mouth, your mouth just flies open and this language-like stuff comes out. acoustically, it's [language disassociated from meaning] but what you're – you're not hearing it. the startled friends who sent you to this place are putting up with this – what you're experiencing is a visual modality where these tones are surfaces, shading, colors, insets, jewels, you are making something [language disassociated from meaning] you know, erase, move forward, add cerulean, put in stippling – it's that sort of thing.

and they go mad with joy when you do this. and then, you know, this goes on for about 30 seconds and then there is like a ripple through the system and you realize these two continua are being pulled apart. and I had one trip where the – and often it's very erotic, although I'm not sure that's the word. but it's something. it's almost like sex is the surface of something of which this is the volume. and I'm a great fan of sex. I don't mean to denigrate it. I mean to raise DMT to a very high status. but it's astonishing. in one trip as the pull-away maneuver began, all the elves turned simultaneously and looked at me and said 'déjà vu, déjà vu.'

so, this is an experience which in some form – I mean it will be different for each one of you – but in some form at least what will be similar to my description is how dramatic it will be. it will hit you as hard as it hit me if you do it right. this, to me, this experience is of a fundamentally different order than any other experience this side of the yawning grave. and why religions have not been built around it? why empires have not risen and fallen around the control of its sources? why theology has not enshrined it as its central exhibit for the presence of the other in the human world? I don't know. I can tell the secret. as you notice, nothing shuts me up. but why this is not four-inch headlines on every newspaper on the planet, I cannot understand. because I don't know what news you were waiting for, but this is the news that I was waiting for. it's an incredible challenge to human understanding to try and make sense of this.

and I started out, you know, reading Jung, doing my Hindu, you know getting up to speed with all that, studying Zen Buddhism, studying shamanism. ...the thing that puzzles me about DMT is how little trace there is of it in the human world. I can't point to a period in European art, or the art of some group of islanders somewhere, and say that is very much like DMT. it isn't. and yet the DMT thing is, it's like an avalanche of orgasmic beauty, but a certain kind of beauty that only words that I can find for the kind of beauty that it is, is bizarre, alien, outlandish, outré, freaky, and at the very edge of what the human mind seems to be able to hold. well, where is this coming from? and what is happening? and this is what I like to discuss with people such as yourselves who have wide experience in the world and in the realms of the unseen. this has to be taken seriously. In other words, ‘it’s only a hallucination’ thing – that horse shit is just passé.

...what we've got here, folks, is an intelligent entelechy of some sort that is frantic to communicate with human beings for some reason. and the possibilities can be logically enumerated. what we've got here is either 'this is an extraterrestrial', you know, evolved around a different star, possibly with a different biology, may not even be made of matter, came across an enormous distance sometime maybe long ago, has some agenda which we may or may not be able to conceive of, this is it – the real thing as the little girl said in Poltergeist 'they're here!'. so that's one possibility. that’s just one possibility.

I present these without judgement, because I'm not sure. if an extraterrestrial wanted to interact with a human society, and it had ethics that forbade it from landing trillion ton beryllium ships on the United Nations plaza – in other words if it were subtle – I can see hiding yourself inside a shamanic intoxication. you would say 'let's analyze these people, okay they're kinda hard-headed rationalists, except they have this phenomenon called -getting loaded- and when they get loaded they accept whatever happens to them. so let's hide inside the load and we'll talk to them from there and they'll never realize that we're of a different status than pink elephants.' okay, that's one possibility.

...there is a third possibility, which – I leave it to you to decide whether this is the more conservative position or the more radical position. and I reached this reluctantly and I'm not sure this is my position, but uh... these things have a weird – these tykes, as I call them, these self-transforming machine elves, these syntactical homunculi – have a very weird relationship to human beings. first of all, they love us! they care for some reason. whoever and whatever they are, they're far more aware of us than we are aware of them. witness the fact that they welcome me. so is it possible that at the end of the 20th century, at the end of 500 years of materialism, reductionism, positivism, what we're about to discover is probably the least likely denouement any of us expected out of our dilemma. what we're about to discover is that death has no sting. that what you penetrate on DMT is an ecology of human souls in another dimension of some sort.

I mean, this is hair raising to me, and I've spent my whole adolescence and early adulthood getting free from Catholicism and its assumptions and I never imagined that a thorough exploration of life's mysteries would lead to the conclusion that, in fact, this is but a prelude. we are in a very tiny womb of some sort. our lives are just stations, and this is not where we are destined to unfold ourselves into what it means to be human. this is some kind of metamorphic stage like the pupa of a butterfly. and so, this is deep water. because, we are fairly agitated over the fact that we fear the planet is dying and us with it. this stuff raises the issue: you don't know what dying is. therefore it's very uncertain exactly what sort of an attitude we should take to it. and as I say, I'm not advocating a position. mysteries are not unsolved problems, they are mysteries. when you stand naked in the presence of the mystery, it is still utterly and completely mysterious.

but I enjoy talking to people about this, because I think that the human body, the human mind, these are tools for the soul to use in the effort to unlock its meaning and its destiny. and millions of people, perhaps billions of people, have gone to the grave without knowing that this is possible – this experience that I've just described to you. and it's perfectly harmless. I mean, I think that if science would back out of politics and do its work, we could establish that DMT is the most harmless, the safest, of all hallucinogens.
the fact that it occurs naturally in the human brain is the first clue to the fact that it's benign. the second clue is the fact that it only lasts 8 to 12 minutes. what that means to a pharmacologist is the body perfectly understands what to do with this compound – you take a hit of DMT and your body says 'oh, I recognize this, activate deamination cycle, activate demethylation cycle, activate...' – it knows what to do. and so within ten minutes your down. a drug that you take and 48 hours later you're lying around in warm baths and refusing telephone calls is a drug you shouldn't have taken. because it's hitting you too hard, it's not clean, it's not smooth. DMT – the most powerful hallucinogen known to man and science – clears your system in 15 minutes! I mean, you're so down, you don't have a small headache or need to take a nap or anything! you're ready to do phone calls.

so how can it be then that a compound which each of us carries – right here – right in the pineal gland, right in the Ajna chakra. the philosopher's stone is no further away than that. how can this be secret from us? how can we be trapped in a dimension of such limitation and such mundaneness when our own nervous systems, and the ecology around us, and our own history over the past half million years argues that this is what we were born and bred for. this is where we belong. this is what 'at play in the fields of the Goddess' must mean. and somehow history has made us dysfunctional, buried the mystery, made it, if at best, a piece of secret knowledge jealously guarded by somebody. I mean, I don't know. there are lots of mystery cults and secret societies in the world. I don't know if any of them are guarding DMT as a secret. it may be so. no one told me to keep my mouth shut.

a very suggestive short story – I'm sure many of you know and love the Argentine surrealist writer Jorge Luis Borges. well, Borges has a book – I believe it's called 'Labyrinths' – and in Labyrinths there is a short story called 'The Sect of the Phoenix', and it says: 'there is a sacrament older than mankind. the sectarians have been the victims of every persecution in human history, and the sectarians have been the purveyors of every persecution in history. these sectarians are not identifiable by race or place or language or time. to the adept, the mystery appears ridiculous, yet they do not speak of it.  one child can initiate another. it is orange. ruins are propitious places. do it in the moonlight in the thresholds of buildings.' and that's all it said – it's a page and a half. and it suggests – and see, here's the thing – I'm not as articulate on this subject as I wish I could be – if this is not the secret that these lineages are guarding, then they're guarding an empty house.

this is the secret! it is, it is! it cannot be anything else. it is the neoplatonic One. it is the trans-substantiant object – the panis supersubstantialis of the alchemists. I'm not saying that people have known about this for a long time. DMT is in many plants as I said, but spread very thinly and we don't have historical records of anyone ever concentrating it. I've done the DMT plant preparations of the Amazon – the snuffs and the ayahuasca. and on ayahuasca, if it is heavily laced with the DMT-containing plant, after hours of breath work and drumming, alone in the jungle, you can begin to open it up to the place that DMT will carry you to in 45 seconds in an upper east-side apartment, whether you like it or not.

so, some of you may have seen, years and years ago, this B movie about a guy who has a big ranch in Mexico, and one of the campesinos comes rushing back from having encountered a brontosaur in the forest, and he can only point inarticulately at the woods and say 'something, something, something, something!!' and that's what I am! I'm a monkey. and I've come back to the troop, and I'm telling you there's something over the next hill that is off the scale, off the scale. and I have made it my business to, you know, delve, I'm a delver, I'm a noetic archaeologist – obscure heresies and strange rites and all of this stuff – been there, done that. it's all pale soup compared to this.

...it's another dimension. it is literally another dimension. I took DMT to a lama of great accomplishment, not one of the grab-ass can of Budweiser welded to the good right hand lamas, but a real lama. this guy was over 90 when he smoked DMT and since his wheel has turned. and he said to me 'it's the lesser lights'. he said 'you can't go further into the Bardo and return.' and so I think that we stand at the brink of an enormous frontier – call it incorporeality, call it non-material existence, or, you know, bite the bullet call it death. but this is the frontier that we stand on the edge of. this is what history has been about.

...this thing is calling us toward itself across aeons of cosmic time. we are asked to mirror it and as we mirror it, we become more of its essence. and as we become more of its essence, we leave behind the animal organization that we were cast in, in the beginning. and what this is about? who knows? is this a drama of cosmic redemption? is it the transcendental other at the end of time? is it a gnostic daemon? what is it? we do not know. but I really believe we are in the era when we will come to know.
and what the psychedelics are, are periscopes in the temporal dimension. if you want to see a little bit into the future, elevate you psychedelic periscope outside of the three dimensional continuum and peer around.

...think of the fetus in the womb at the moment of transition. surely it must despair. the walls are closing in. it's being crushed and strangled. gone are the endless amniotic oceans of a few months before: the weightlessness, the effortless delivery of food through the umbilical cord. suddenly, it's just boundaries and agony and crushing pressure – that's where we are. and we are going to have to shed history like a snake sheds its skin if we want to slip off into hyperspace, where I think all of magical humanity is awaiting us and cheering us on, lending their weight. they're all out there, you know, Proclus, and Plotinus, and Plato, and Hypatia, and Henry Cornelius Agrippa, and John Dee, and Robert Fludd, and Eliaphas Levy – they are all out there pulling for us. and every shaman and shamanness, every magician practitioner as far back in time as you go was part of the plan, the conjuration, the great work, the distillation of the quintessence. history is a magical invocation, and at the end of that invocation – if it is correctly done – all boundaries will dissolve into the stone, the lapis, a trans-dimensional vehicle that can move through space and time. that is, the collectivity of all human souls free at last in what William Blake called 'the Divine Imagination'.

and you don't have to wait for the general dispensation. you can join up anytime by hyper-spacializing your metaphors and your point of view through psychedelic symbiosis with the plants that are pouring this hyper dimensional Gaian vision into the minds of anyone who will detoxify themselves from history and linear thinking, and but open themselves to the presence of the trans-formative mystery that is going to leave this planet unrecognizable to us within our lifetimes. so that's the basic spiel. and I think it raises a lot of questions and yours is first.

question: are there any northern hemisphere, western herbs that inhabit DMT that we would have access to?

the answer is yes, yes. the question is 'are there herbs in the temperate zone that contain DMT?' yes. there are certain grasses – Phalaris arundinacea, Phalaris tuberosa. these can be ordered from plant dealers or gotten, ironically enough, from agricultural experiment stations because these are pasturage grasses. a lot of people are doing wonderful work right now learning how to make DMT preparations out of native plants. the mature Phalaris grass – it's very diffuse, the DMT. so what people are doing is they're getting the seeds and they're spouting them in a sprouter. and then they're taking the sprouted seeds and air drying them. well, you can imagine how powdery sprouts become if you air dry them. well, then you can powder up a handful of these sprouts and twist that into a bomber and come very very close to the flash point.

the other thing – I mean, since I'm talking to recipe-oriented magicians – the other thing you need to understand if you want to work in this area is that DMT can ordinarily not be taken orally, because there is an enzyme system in your intestines called the mono amine oxidase system (MAO) and it will destroy the DMT. but the good news is there are certain compounds called MAO inhibitors – didn't you know it. if you take a mono amine oxidase inhibitor, and then you take DMT, the DMT will survive the gut and pass into the blood stream, and pass the blood-brain barrier.  
so here is a very important piece of practical information I am about to give you.

if you want to inhibit your MAO in order to make DMT trips longer, or mushroom trips longer and more intense, or to activate DMT if you only have a little bit of it, then what you should get are the seeds of Peganum harmala. you can either order it under that name from seed dealers, or go to an Iranian market and buy what is called Hurmal. this is simply Peganum harmala seeds. they use it as an incense to fumigate rooms. but two grams – don't take more – two grams of this macerated in a mortar and pestle with spring water taken from a spring at the new moon near a crossroads will inhibit your MAO. it will inhibit your MAO.

consequently, then when you smoke the bomber of Phalaris dust it will grab on. or you can even smoke mushrooms then, and they will grab on.
so knowing how to inhibit MAO is one of the key techniques in this kind of herbal shamanic magic.
other plants that contain DMT, and here's one you should all be aware of because it's probably right around here, is Desmanthus ilinoensis – Illinois Bundle Weed. it's a rank weed. I've not seen it except in the dry form, but people have grown hundreds of pounds of this stuff in a few months. and the root bark has the highest concentration of DMT ever measured in any plant. it's higher than the ayahuasca admixtures used in the Amazon.

in the root bark. the root bark which you dry the root, and then scrape the bark off, and you'll get this reddish root bark. the red is actually the DMT. virola trees in the Amazon shed DMT in their sap, and it's always a blood red sap. and to show you how strong it is, the indians in the Amazon – some of the tribes – they roll their arrow points directly into that sap. and it's a paralytic poison in the bloodstream of monkeys and small animals.

so a great deal of work is being done right now and you should, if you're of an experimental and herbal and alchemical and magical bent, people are creating what they call ayahuasca analogs. this is where you use local plants to create a brew which is chemically equivalent to an Amazonian hallucinogen. and of course, you have the satisfaction that it's yours. it's your magical recipe. no one on earth is doing quite what you've got and it's very – a lot of interesting work is being done and you'll hear more about this. in fact, Jonathan Ott just wrote a book called 'Ayahuasca Analogs' in which the state of the art is spelled out, and it would be worth your while to check that out if you're an experimentalist.

the question is 'is there a more – is there a simple reagent test for the presence of DMT?' the answer is: sort of. you can do a paper chromatographic test and all you need is a little UV light and some chromatography paper and some solvent dishes. I mean, it's at the level of a 7th grade science project.
yes, I don't know how much I should say on this subject. I'm probably about to say too much, but at one gathering I go to, one of the people who's a very regular part of that particular posse, is a wheat breeder. so when he heard about the Phalaris, he was a geneticist and a wheat breeder. and he has been working very quietly on his own to produce super strains of Phalaris, and I think we will soon see super strains because the underground community is incredibly creative in this area.

the compound I talked about yesterday – Salvia divinorum – that's all underground work. Bret Blosser, the anthropologist who discovered it is a complete freak. the guy, the chemist who extracted it, who would prefer I don't put out his name, is a complete freak. the people who then did the confirmation studies – my brother and his band of performing pharmacologists – all freaks. so we actually, we do not take ourselves seriously enough. I mean, we have our scientists, we have our philosophers, we have our thinkers, our legal experts, we are a complete community. and it's no longer, in my mind, even necessary to publish in straight journals and to seek a pat on the head from, you know, the American pharmacology community. they don't understand what these things are for anyway.

question: could you give that name of it?

yes, I'll repeat this and strengthen once again my case to the guy who owns the company that he should pay me, for gods sakes. if you want a catalog of extremely rare and useful psychoactive and magical plants, probably the most complete in the world – the company is called 'Of The Jungle' PO Box 1801 Sebastopol, CA, 95472. write and ask for a catalog. and tell them George Bush sent you. no, I'm teasing. don't tell them that they won't send you the catalog.

...all these popular aliens that are running around – you know, the Whitley Strieboids and all these things – are much
more mundane than what I encountered. I mean, what I encountered was terrifyingly not human. terrifyingly alien. and I just do not quite get – and Madame Blavatsky was into it and they're always saying, you know the – I don't know, they're all very cut and dried about it. and when I encounter an extraterrestrial alien or a creature from another dimension, the main thing that's happening for me is the implications are blowing my mind! they seem totally immune to the implications.

yes, what is not much talked about – the part of the experience which is anomalous – and maybe people who know more about magical literature than I do can correct me – but what the elves are really interested in, is this stuff which I call 'visible language'. that's the whole point of the encounter, is to exhibit it and to get you to do it.

well, now first of all, think for a minute about ordinary language – it's really weird! it's the weirdest thing we do. I mean, if you were looking for the thumbprint of God on creation, human language would be a good candidate. because, look, we're suppose to be some kind of animal who just went a little further than the next guy, but to get out of that Shakespeare and Milton is a pretty amazing accomplishment. hardly to speak of the mathematical languages that we generate. so something happened – some people think only 35,000 years ago. imagine if that's true. I mean, I don't care, some people say 150,000 years ago.
but to speak, to take small mouth noises and to turn them into signifiers for symbols and relationships in spite of some people's enthusiasm for cetaceans and dolphins, I just am not overwhelmed by the evidence. I mean, to me, you know, it is a miracle to be able to speak poetry. it is a miracle. I mean, when Coleridge wrote...that’s language! and it's magic! we have a fascination then. we also paint. then we sculpt. then we write. then we create electronic databases. then film, television. clearly, what we want to do is we want to communicate visually. and these things are saying there's way to do it. do it! and I don't understand: do we all have to be loaded on DMT all the time? can you learn to do this?

the gentleman who asked about dreams: here's a piece of information that is critical in this jigsaw puzzle. if you have smoked DMT at any time in the past, it is possible to have a dream in which people are running around and you're checked into the Mars hotel and the luggage is lost and this and that, and in the middle of all that someone drags out a little glass pipe and hands it to you. it will happen. it will happen in the dream! not a memory, not a simulacrum, it will really happen. well now to me that's an amazing piece of data because what it's saying is 'you can do it on the natch'. you may have to be dead asleep, but still on the natch this can be done. and the lucid dreamers, the biofeedback people, the people who claim these wonderful things that you can do with sleep and dream and programming, I challenge them: teach people to have DMT dreams in their sleep. and then let's figure out how to drag that puppy into the light so that we can do it at will on the natch.

b>one thing that I have come to believe is that we remember no more than five percent of our dreams, and it's the most mundane five percent. I think – and there's scientific evidence to support this – remember I said that DMT is in the human brain? well, it concentrates in the human cerebra-spinal fluid on a 24 hour cycle and it reaches its peak of concentration between 3 and 4 AM in most people. that's when the deep REM sleep is happening. when you give somebody DMT, they lay back, they close their eyes, and the way you – the guide, the sitter, I don't like the word guide – you the sitter, the way you can tell that they're getting off is their eyes dart wildly behind their closed eyelids. it means they're in REM, they're in REM sleep, they've been immediately shoved into deep dreaming.

so I believe that what DMT is doing in normal human metabolism is it mediates the decent, the spiral decent into dream and that every single night we are reunited with the boundary-less oceanic mystery of being that we are so frantic about in waking life and so distant from. and that if we could, in fact, just engineer a drug that would allow us to remain fully conscious as we drift deeper into dream, we would need no other drug or substance – that that's where we want to go. and I think that's where history is headed. what the archaic revival is about, is a revivification of the aboriginal dream time. we are going to live in the imagination. we are preparing to decamp from three dimensional space. I mean yes, the earth is the cradle of the human race, but you don't stay in the cradle forever, you know. and it’s something like going into dream. it's something like taking the hyper technical virtual reality internet head of the snake and inserting the shamanic, late paleolithic, ecstatic, orgiastic tail of the snake and then you have the ouroboric completion. then you have the quintessence and the work is complete and history ends and we live then in the light of the stone made manifest.

...I'm very interested in environmental and electronic simulations of psychedelic states, but we're not going to do better than the psychedelics. if we can do as well it will be a miracle. I mean, you see more beauty in a first wave of psilocybin than the human race has produced in the past five thousand years – and who are you? you know.

I hadn't considered that, but that sounds possible. I mean, we're definitely coming to some enormous cusp, and whether you think it's the cusp of cusps, or just a big cusp, it's hard to say. somebody faxed me – I got a fax right before I came here – I don't know who sent it to me, it was just an anonymous fax, but in huge letters is said 'when you strip away the hype, it's just another concrescence'."

Terence McKenna – Everything you need to know about DMT – Rap Dancing Into the Third Millenium FACEBOOK

Outpourings of a Mushroom October 2014 pt 8

10'29 Do you really want to wait for that?
The mushroom TWEET will cut this #Nine11 shit TWEET off the steam.

10'29 look at what the National Security Act has become over the years TWEET
and it gets worse with the Patriot Act every day...

10'30 if you like the militarization of your homeland, you will love its big brotherization. 
look forward to a great show of mafia-style perfection

10'30 After 800 years, "9/11" has pulverized "habeas corpus" for a global audience... consider this in relation to the rise of the World Wide Web.

10'29 "this is an INTERVIEW I did with Sylvain Collette for a French music zine called Dig It"
What happened to Patrick Lundborg? Why is he dead?! 

10'30 Do we know what the composer of what some call The New Psychedelic Bible died of 18 months after it was published? REVIEW

10'30 "Now this is pure speculation on my part...I'm as curious as anybody as to what the heck befell him." COMMENT

10'30 @BentonRooks Do you know something specific about the man's death perhaps?
Or do you maybe know somebody who could know something?
@cosmopinciotti Hey there, no I'm sorry, afraid I don't.
There were others that were closer than I but none who I have direct contact
10'30 @BentonRooks Thanks for answering my question, Mr. Rooks.
Until yesterday I was completely unaware of the man! Am still totally overwhelmed.
@cosmopinciotti No problem! I'm sorry I can't be of more help and I'm glad to hear you enjoy Lundborg much as I :-)
10'30 @BentonRooks I'm a great admirer of shrewd heads who strive to provide a deeper and clearer understanding. especially between different beliefs

10'30 "to explore the places and emotions and ideas that you run into during a psychedelic trip, then Buddhism or Hinduism has nothing to offer"

10'30 My definition (of the use) of truth: people feel at home within their paradigms, and an alternative way of thinking is not known officially.

10'30 approaching psychedelia as its own culture and way of life TUNNEL

I realized that the question of a true psychedelic culture had never been properly studied or even identified, and so that became my mission with the book – approaching psychedelia as its own culture and way of life.

...Obviously the Great Mystery at Eleusis was an exceptionally important "ground zero" for Western psychedelia.

...People would say things like "you can get to the same place without drugs by meditating". This is simply bullshit. There is no way you can get into the massive sensory onslaught of a full-spectrum hallucinogen trip without the use of drugs. Meditation doesn't make you see music streaming out as red and green notes from the speakers, or put you in contact with trickster aliens who explain the secrets of spacetime while juggling bizarre colorful objects in front of your eyes.

...Songs like Tomorrow Never Knows and Strawberry Fields are masterpieces of early psychedelia and helped push the boundaries of rock music into unknown domains. Nothing like those tracks had really been done before.
...The Rolling Stones can be considered bandwagon jumpers when they did Satanic Majesties. But that is still a really good album. The Beatles on the other hand were so early into psychedelic music (Spring 1966), that they were actually pioneers of the style.

...The psychedelic experience is an extremely powerful modifier of consciousness and personality. Almost all people who do it a few times and have primarily positive, illuminating experiences go through important changes as to who they are, how they see the world and what they want to do. Some of these changes are rapid and noticable, others are very subtle and may not be discovered until you look back on your life and see how you changed your behavior and what caused it. These changes are not random, nor wholly individual – there is a pattern as to what happens to a person who takes psychedelic drugs.

...People who take psychedelic drugs enough times tend to become more relaxed, more open to new experiences, more accepting of faults in the world or in themselves, and more prepared to live in situations where the boundaries and rules are unclear or conflicting. One of the classic signs of psychedelization that I like to point to is that one has no problems handling ambivalence and ambiguity, which the modern world is full of.

This is of course because the psychedelic trip rips apart false dichotomies and dualisms like they were wrapping paper, presenting you instead with an Innerspace world where everything is three different things at once and everything is in a flux, like Heraclitus' "panta rei" or the Merry Pranksters' "nothing lasts". Spend enough time in Innerspace and the joy, and magic that goes with it, and everything that used to be rigid and uptight about you will fade away, and be replaced by a person who is both more mature, and in a paradoxical way, more child-like.

...In other countries, such as the USA, the squares are terrified of those who make themselves free, not because they're a threat, but because they believe their whole society and way of life would collapse if too many people freed their minds and their personalities with psychedelic drugs. And the funny thing is that I think they are right.
...One million Americans took LSD enough to become permanently changed, and this created a spiritual counterculture that affected the entire society for a number of years. Imagine what would happen if 100 million Americans took LSD? Those financial pillars and big corporations and government functions would find themselves filled with people who suddenly questioned everything that went on, who decided that they didn't need this shit in their lives, and walked away from their jobs and the whole grid.

...What they might have been wrong about, however, is that the new society that would replace the old rat-race treadmill pyramid game would by necessity be inferior to the old ways. In view of what psychedelics do to healthy, adult people, I think chances are good that a society built by psychedelicists would be superior to what we currently have in the West.

...Given what the Western world looks like today, the most predictable outcome are psychedelic enclaves that co-exist with the old system. A model which has already been experimented with and continues to be of great relevance. I believe that this is the future we need to consider, and that is why I spent a whole chapter in the Psychedelia book on discussing psychedelic congregations and communes, building small-scale Utopias.

...So, understanding that Psychedelia represents its own, standalone path of spiritual training is the first step. Moving ahead from that, I believe that there are schools and traditions that are useful to be familiar with as one learns to navigate inside the psychedelic trip.

INTERVIEW with Patrick Lundberg

10'30 "I knew that I needed to find a perspective that was both new and strong enough to carry a book."

10'30 "I realized that the question of a true psychedelic culture had never been properly studied or even identified, and so that became my mission with the book – approaching psychedelia as its own culture and way of life." TWEET 

"Intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where all things are connected and known."
10'30 @astral_arbiter intuition is the most intimate thing, the source of one's reality. 
and overstated romanticism is especially dangerous there.

10'30 @JoshCRandall2 The world is full of make-believe TWEET and we have no effective instrument against it yet.
@cosmopinciotti aren't you haunted by the knowledge that a shift in conscious is the only obstacle to a better world?
10'31 yes and no. because what you call the only obstacle appears to me more like a quantum leap in public awareness. a major fundamental shift in mentality towards curiosity. 
but I'm not haunted by it, I really enjoy the ride. deeply and passionately
@cosmopinciotti I watch the world catastrophe of Western politics and think "if they could but truly feel what they are doing to others."
11'01 @JoshCRandall2 absolutely right.  
unfortunately, democratic republics are made of Loyola/loyauté/loyalty. look at which type of personality Kafkaesque hierarchies wash to the top. "to be as a corpse without any opinion or will of my own" the callous mind is the norm

10'31 instant satisfaction! #FF @failingjoyfully @Diana_M_Joice @jbmurray @TheMistressVee @dominatorcultur @SchoolSucksShow @waitbutwhy @Dvitalis

10'31 -pic* @angrygn0me sometimes it feels that way

10'31 PinPoint Audiences by UberMedia WEBSITE
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10'30 Do Catholics have to believe in the Big Bang now? ARTICLE 
10'31 @tlthe5th "The Big Bang theory supports evidence of a divine creator."
Most contradictions disappear once you've begun to study Jesuitism...
10'31 @tlthe5th "this is the limit test for credulity...whether you believe this or not" TWEET

10'31 "This is the limit test for credulity." TUNNEL

"Every model of the universe has a hard swallow. What I mean by a hard swallow is a place where the argument cannot hide the fact that there's something slightly fishy about it. The hard swallow built into science is this business about the Big Bang. Now, let's give this a little attention here.

This is the notion that the universe, for no reason, sprang from nothing in a single instant. Well, now before we dissect this, notice that this is the limit test for credulity. Whether you believe this or not, notice that it is not possible to conceive of something more unlikely or less likely to be believed! I mean, I defy anyone – it's just the limit case for unlikelihood, that the universe would spring from nothing in a single instant, for no reason?! – I mean, if you believe that, my family has a bridge across the Hudson River that we'll give you a lease option for five dollars! It makes no sense.

It is in fact no different than saying, 'And God said, let there be light'. And what these philosophers of science are saying is, give us one free miracle, and we will roll from that point forward – from the birth of time to the crack of doom! – just one free miracle, and then it will all unravel according to natural law, and these bizarre equations which nobody can understand but which are so holy in this enterprise."

Terence McKenna QUOTE 

10'31 Catholicism is piety science.

10'31 I'm calling Jesuitism a science from now on. TUNNEL

Well, in case you haven't noticed, TWEET the Big Bang goes Catholic now with a Jesuit as Pope.
Back to the roots, so to speak. TWEET 

so what I mean by stating that theology is in fact piety science – theatrically disguised as religion if you will – is, for instance, that I cannot imagine how Cardinal Avery Dulles SJ or Reinhard Marx, Cardinal Archbishop of Munich and Freising, or any other member of the Roman priesthood initiated as bishop did/do really believe in an abstract (theoretical), uber-cosmic (transcendental), single male being (God) driven by fatherly attention, not with the best will in the world. they say they do, sure, but they actually don't.

"The Western mind is a house of cards." TWEET 

I mean, they know exactly the power and importance of psychedelia for the soul, for mankind, and I assume they use it heavily for their own strength, but instead of sharing the mystery, sharing the experience, they use it to rule. they make their intellectual and emotional superiority out of it. very systematically, yes, scientifically. in other words, they deal with subtle stories of spiritual and political significance which they don't believe in literally themselves, just deliberately as piety politicians above the milieu that we call politics. say, why can I find not one non-limited, piety-theoretical academic institute online?

"Culture is the effort to hold back the mystery, and replace it with a mythology." Terence McKenna

in my view, that's precisely what Rome is responsible for with its occult masterminds. the Roman Empire aka the Catholic Church has been reformed by the Jesuit Military Order, the first effective globalization movement. they form the CIA of the Vatican, but they're much more than just a secret service. so Catholicism today is Jesuitism basically. these messianic extremists are in charge in my opinion, world-wide since Nagasaki. mainly through their Jesus Magic but also through freemasonry, Scientology, illuminism, Mormonism, fascism, Jacobinism, communism, what have you. through jurisdiction, through fiat money and pop music, Hollywood, the education system, the media paradigm... through corporatism altogether. they invented solidarism! enough.
in short, they're able to give willing executioners on all levels of "the old rat-race treadmill pyramid game" good reasons to do what they do, and I'm calling that a science from now on.

Joe L. Mitchell, Jr. writes in Theology – The Silent Killer: "Theology has been a secret, like the Washington, D.C., sniper hiding in the bushes. No one knew who he was or where he was going to strike next. 
The truth about theology is as unknown as the identity of the sniper was at the time.
...Theology mixes with some truth is as dangerous as natural gas because it will go undetected."

yesterday I got inspired to think this TWEET "American Hustle"...

"The beginning of the world was not chaotic, he continued, but rooted in love. And beliefs in creation and evolution can co-exist.
...In fact, it was a Catholic priest, Georges Lemaitre, who in 1927 first proposed what became known as the Big Bang theory. Later, Pope Pius XII asserted evolution and Catholic doctrine are not contrary, and St. John Paul II backed him.
...These discoveries invite us to even greater admiration for the greatness of the Creator, prompting us to give him thanks for all his works and for the understanding and wisdom he gives to scholars and researchers."

If theists in sensitive position are indeed transforming the voice of Patrick Lundborg's Overseer INTERVIEW
into this fantastic – as almighty as imperceptible – poetic superhero – and that for centuries – I'd think they deserve a lot of credit for such a tremendously spectacular achievement.
You know, their science is to fabricate elaborate stories for manipulating the romantic heart, our epicenter of existence, and I am convinced that they can only control what people want to hear and also finally embrace.

in principle, "9/11" is the same dialectical good cop-bad cop story like Christianity TWEET 

The corporate system, the so-called government, preaches one patriotic conspiracy, Ray McGovern, Alex Jones and many others are preaching the antagonistic patriotic version of it.  
The "9/11" truth movement makes Philip Zelikow's and Richard Clark's official theory even safer, because as long as they fight against each other there won't be any progress or a solution.

my question would be: who really wants to understand this controversy? I mean, really? TWEET

okay, I know, that's a pretty rough ride for a proper first explanation. how about we call this a beginning?
a pile of fresh dirt that needs to be examined until the beauty of it suddenly arises.

Theology: The Silent Killer. An Unknown Weapon Is Revealed by @MrJoJoSmooth Joe L. Mitchell, Jr. BOOK

10'31 Curiosity should be rewarded. Here, TWEET this is your answer. Thanks go to @tlthe5th Thomas Richards.

10'20 @johncusack You're right again, man. "9/11" is but a symptom of a long standing illness
(no, I'm not marginalizing Sep 11th)

10'31 @johncusack haven't read it yet John but don't you think it would be far more important to have a sketchy idea of what government in fact is

10'31 @johncusack in the language of "9/11": a global corporate government needs world crises desperately... so there will be no peace, period

10'31 @johncusack who does not think big enough won't move at eye level with guys like Kissinger, Clinton, Bush and Brzezinski

10'31 believing is a matter of taste, and tastes differ.
you choose your beliefs like you choose your foods. you are what you are. the rest is silence

Outpourings of a Mushroom October 2014 pt 7

"develop immunity to negativity" 10'27 @DalienTha_Alien @OutreDragon these guys wouldn't touch the subject of inculturation spectacles like #Nine11 with a ten-foot pole. no way...

08'25 "If there is a God, he will have to beg my forgiveness."

08'25 "a memeplex's immune system consists of a bunch of counter-memes that attack threatening ideas" BLOG POST 
09'02 @cosmopinciotti in case one needed any more proof: TWEET "develop immunity to negativity"
TWEET -pic* I like smiling

08'25 "you can get lost in symbols and call yourself an intellectual, but you'll get paid more if you call yourself a lawyer" BLOG POST 

08'27 "it could be a mechanism by which the fetus ensures maternal fitness in order to enhance its own chances of survival" ARTICLE 

08'27 "when pregnant women have damage in other organs, including brain, lung and liver...fetal cells show up there, too" ARTICLE 

08'27 you have to understand corporatism first (god, government, law, money) before you're able to really understand the whole dimension of "9/11"

10'27 @OutreDragon I'm also particularly concerned about doing it very attentively, because I don't want to end up like this clown @Youniversoul13
@cosmopinciotti be nice...
10'27 How one proves oneself a liar... TWEET Thanks for the reminder, Dragonheart!

10'27 "unlike Zimbardo, we believe that what became apparent in his prison experiment – widely revealed through the realities of the recent abuses at the Abu Ghraib and Guantanamo Bay prisons – is simply an extreme manifestation of all hierarchical power relations" BOOK

10'27 "atheistic totalitarian regimes hold the belief that their citizens cannot be trusted to choose their own beliefs" beliefs under control are the most important reason for McKenna's final conclusion that "culture is not your friend"
10'27 but doesn't everyone who preaches something wholeheartedly do that in the name of love?
TWEET Let me tell you the worst thing you can ever do to someone. Tell them you love them when you don't.
@cosmopinciotti do you agree with everything that man says?
idolization is exactly the thing I try to stay away from
10'27 @nr1woman no, I do not TWEET
he's kind of a world champion, but with a massive ontological deficit TWEET
10'29 @cosmopinciotti There is still hope for your soul, if you focus on more than just pussies and shrooms.
10'27 @nr1woman I do not hope either. not one bit. and you hopefully see the whole spectrum of the magic of a frivolous vadge and an amanita muscaria
@cosmopinciotti seen it, done it. still hope for something "deeper"
10'27 @nr1woman What could be deeper than the adored soul of a paramour in the light of history and the vastness of the spiritual dimension?
@cosmopinciotti We are trees in a forest.
09'28 @nr1woman sure! "When I grow up I want to be a forest." BLOG POST And who lives there with the trees? TWEET

10'27 "it's quite brilliant really, and so I applaud the evil intelligence that concocted this scheme. most of us feel a need to connect with a higher spirit and awareness. this natural desire was hijacked by institutions who service the soul at very reasonable prices..." Julian Wash

10'28 "when von Moltke's Prussian blitzkrieg culminated in the French disaster at Sedan and a German Empire was finally proclaimed, ending a thousand years of disunion. Prussian schooling was the widely credited forge which made those miracles possible" BOOK 

"Loyalty is everything" #RealTalk
10'28 yes, loyalty's the actual glue –The Jesus Magic– that binds this corporatist "9/11"-system together TWEET

10'28 @anaturaldreamer oops, I found a definition for love TWEET 

10'28 @ceoMARS @zoltan_istvan oh dear WEBSITE  popularity is a bad sign

@cosmopinciotti interesting amalgamation of images
10'28 @OutreDragon if I may venture a guess, the #tactfuldragon TWEET isn't amused by some of the darker considerations in there
10'28 @cosmopinciotti amused? no. reluctantly curious? yes.
10'28 @OutreDragon What a superb counter! As razor-sharp as elegant, beautifully precise.
That's exactly what turns me on. Pinpoint interventions.

10'28 @lifessubatomic really? wouldn't this put the whole notion of D/s romanticism into question? TWEET
10'28 @lifessubatomic I see it a bit more fundamentally TWEET with the symbiotic use of language as a beginning and a guideline.
@cosmopinciotti I'm very quick at harvesting the energy of an ideology and metabolizing it.
I only need a little taste for perspective.
10'28 @lifessubatomic I have found @failingjoyfully through Stephanie TWEET 3 days ago.
Her energy is worth the metabolization.

@cosmopinciotti people likely shortcut and reroute our direction (knowingly and not), giving us their path to beat down ahead of them.
10'28 @lifessubatomic "it's hard for me to recognize people as something I'm part of"
@cosmopinciotti when I do, it's the humanity as a whole I glimpse, that everyone has the same basic needs, and I can work with that
10'28 @lifessubatomic It surely is a noble gesture to call in the holy whole in order to avoid meaningful connections full of darkness, fog and dirt.
@cosmopinciotti only in this avenue, Uwe. You know me no other way.
10'28 @lifessubatomic it's the main street of a being together, talking together.
and I am a learning being. I need food for thought. Inspiration, baby.

10'29 McKenna reconsidered TUNNEL by Patrick Lundborg 03'04'13

A dozen years after his untimely death, our perception of Terence McKenna is still up in the air, still very much in a formative stage. Very little has changed in the way Terence is revered (frequently) and criticized (rarely). His person and work are treated as though he was still alive, an impression no doubt strengthened by how hundreds of his hypnotic lectures are broadcast around the globe 24 hours every day. In addition, no new figure-head has emerged within the field to extend, update or replace St Terence's gospel. For reasons like these, the psychedelic underground has clung to the McKenna that he himself designed and presented, with very little in terms of clarification or questioning.

When Terence's brother Dennis in 2011 announced via Kickstarter that he was embarking on a book project that would tell the "actual" story of his life with Terence, including unknown details about the La Chorrera experiment, the excitement was obvious. Many people including myself contributed to the funding of Dennis' writing project, which reached fruition via the book Brotherhood Of The Screaming Abyss published in late 2012 – amusingly, very close in time to Terence's famously prophesized 'end of history'.

Prior to this, updates leaked out from the ongoing project, most notably via an Esalen Institute event that was also podcast at the Psychedelic Salon in July 2012. The fallout from the sharing of this book excerpt and the related conclusions drawn by presenter Bruce Damer were more dramatic than those involved may have expected. Many psychedelicists popped up to comment on the information revealed, some notably hurt or even incredulous. While this response may not have been the main reason, the most crucial paragraph was ultimately removed from Dennis McKenna's finished book. In other words, this information can only be gathered from the Esalen event and the subsequent debate. Even this podcast was temporarily removed from the internet, but it is now available again, presumably without any editing of 'sensitive' passages.

So what, precisely, caused this brouhaha? Here is what Dennis McKenna wrote and later removed from his book manuscript: "Terence's pivotal existential crisis came abruptly. Sometime in '88 or '89. Everything that happened after that event was fallout. I don't know exactly when it happened and I don't know exactly what happened. I am piecing it together from what Kat has told me and she has volunteered few details and I am reluctant to probe. It happened when they were living for a time on the Big Island and it was a mushroom trip they shared that was absolutely terrifying for Terence. It was terrifying because, for some reason, the mushroom turned on him. The gentle, wise, humorous mushroom spirit that he had come to know and trust as an ally and teacher ripped back the facade to reveal an abyss of utter existential despair. Terence kept saying, so Kat told me, that it was, 'a lack of all meaning, a lack of all meaning.' And this induced panic in Terence and probably, I speculate, a feeling that he was going mad. He couldn't deal with it. Kat's efforts to reassure him were fruitless. After that experience, he never again took mushrooms and he took other psychedelics such as DMT and Ayahuasca only on rare occasions and with great reluctance."

Those well familiar with Terence McKenna's career will appreciate the loaded nature of this revelation. In case one fully does not realize the implications of it, Esalen speaker Bruce Damer goes to some length to high-light how Terence's terrifying shroom trip affects the impression of his last decade. What has upset and troubled many Terence fans is the realization that while the man travelled around the world advocating the use of 'heroic dose' psilocybin trips for crowds of thousands, he himself had been scared so badly by a mushroom trip that he gave up shrooms altogether. And this double book-keeping went on for 10 years. Privately Terence would question the value of his teachings and his role, but in public there is no notable shift whatsoever in his message before the terrifying trip in the late '80s, and after it. A person with a critical mindset could draw strongly negative conclusions from this, and even through the most benign lense, it is a troubling revelation.

But there is another aspect to this recent information that I personally find more troubling than the masquerade that has caused Terence fans to feel confused or betrayed. From a few additional comments made at the Esalen gathering, it appears that the theme of Terence's dramatic bad trip dealt with his emotional involvement with other people, a private conundrum which brother Dennis in his book traces back to an event involving their father in Terence's childhood. While charming and extrovert in his role as a bardic performer, Terence apparently strove to avoid any deeper private relationships, and the mushroom 'spirit' (or his own subconscious) presumably took him to task for this unfulfilled aspect of his life. This would be a fairly typical admonition towards self-improvement to receive under psychedelics, and any experienced psychedelicist – and this would certainly include Mr McKenna – knows that there's nothing to do but roll with the punches when you're getting roughed up for your shortcomings as a human being. Yet it seems that Terence could not accept or handle this one, and instead he did the classic beginners mistake of rejecting the warning message. Rejection, denial or other defensive responses will unfailingly trigger the negative spiral of a bad trip, at the end of which one may find an existential abyss like the one described above.

The crucial point of this scenario isn't that Terence had a bad trip, but that he couldn't handle the criticism that Innerspace levelled at him. Such a reaction is not something you would expect to find in a person with 25+ years of heavy psychedelic trips behind him. The psychodynamic cleansing of inner wardrobes and private skeletons is something you tend to deal with at the beginning of the psychedelic career, not towards the end. The question being raised, and this is what troubles me, is whether Terence McKenna had gone through all his psychedelic adventures without ever actually facing an inner confrontation of personality, defenses and hang-ups that is crucial to further spiritual growth on the path of the trip. Is it even possible to chew down 5 grams of dried Cubensis for two decades and never having to pass the rough crash course in self-improvement referred to as 'Gnothi Seauton -Know Thyself- 101' in the Psychedelia book?

Terence McKenna repeatedly rejected LSD due to what he called its 'abrasively psychoanalytic' nature. I never quite understood what he meant, but the new information from brother Dennis & Co. suggests that what Terence referred to was not some intrinsic flaw in LSD, but rather that the acid kept bringing him to doors that he was not interested in opening. To whatever degree these things can be generalized, it seems that LSD per se offers a structured progression in which the psycho-dynamic baggage must be dealt with in order to reach further heights, or else it will be a meaningless experience of funny colors, emotional stalemate, or even a bad trip. The beloved Psilocybin and DMT however, while they insist on self-improvement just as strongly, will still offer plenty for the mind to work with, even if the door to Gnothi Seauton 101 remains closed. The Mushroom Voice ('the Logos') and the various entities will still be there and happy to impart wisdom and dialogue which has no bearing on the inner emotional imbalances of the tripper: even without cleansing there will be a show. And Terence, the self-confessed 'vision freak', was all about the impersonal presentations in Innerspace, from the sight of gigantic spaceships to conversations with little elfs about the future of language.

Is it possible that someone, a person of a brilliant mind, could spend 25 years in the farther reaches of Innerspace and never once face the forceful demands on inner cleansing and self-improvement? If this was the case with Terence McKenna, and it does seem to match the new insights that have emerged, then a plate loaded with food for thought has just been served. Not just concerning the man himself and the nature of his personality, but also about the long-term relationship between psychedelicists and Innerspace, the supposed aquisition of wisdom from these experiences, and the possible need for a more directed or explicit model for beginning acidheads. It is vital to go through Gnothi Seauton 101, the earlier the better, and the longer you try to evade it, the harsher it will ultimately become. As Terence McKenna seems to have learned the hard way.

Comment) I've never been one of those uncritical devotees of Terence (for one thing, I don't believe in neither Timewave Zero nor the Stoned Ape theory), but I certainly like him as a thinker and orator. The news shared by Dennis isn't that dramatic to me, but I can see why some people feel badly hurt by it. Some to the extent that they even accuse Dennis of being jealous or whatever. If you had Terence as a personal guru, this revelation of his secret bad trip must come as a serious blow.

My take is a little different... as I write above, I find it just as troubling that he still had places where the mushroom could confront and reveal him as a "phony" or "poorly developed". After 25 years of tripping you should be fairly clean inside, unless you've been playing games all along. So that bothered me a bit, and makes me wonder exactly what all his trips were like. Did he navigate past all the personal issues to only seek out the fun stuff? If so, how did he manage that under 5 grams dried Cubensis?

There are people out there with specific personality defects that will use psychedelic drugs as a way to show that they're "OK" and "strong". They achieve this by taking large doses and then actively steering the trip away from any kind of personal confrontation. By my experience, if the drug has your number, there is no getting away, but looking at others (and maybe Terence) it seems that even with high doses, you can sail past all the submerged rocks and sea monsters, if your will (or defense system) is strong and well-organized enough. This seems to me a terrible waste of psychedelics, and I've always urged people not to try and control the experience, but remain open and float downstream. Ancient advise, but it holds true. What's the use of taking 300 mikes of acid if you're going to spend the trip avoiding all the important personal stuff the acid wants to show you? I've never understood this.

Anyway, with reference to St Terence, the problem I see is that there is such a gap between what he advocated, like heroic doses of 5 grams alone in darkness, and the obviously terrible trip he had. He pushed for very high doses and high-risk trip behavior, while never revealing that he had had a bad trip. If he had been more cautious and thoughtful, and urged people to take it slow and steady, and also testified about his own bad trip (which Tim Leary did), there wouldn't have been such an abyss between the hardcore message and the troubled reality. He should have restated his position after that bad trip and developed a more sensible advocacy. Individuals receive instruction on serious, life-altering experiences, which can be both good... and sometimes bad. The message must be intelligent, sincere and defendable.

Schwann) Dennis removed the podcast because I, and maybe some others, reaffirmed the fact that TMK did not stop taking shrooms in 1988 because I was with T. in Africa in '96 where he "broke the rules"...I've completed an autobiographical account of my doing with both Terence and Dennis, who wrote the intro for "Journey to Everywhere". Why not read it and save yourself some debate? WEBSITE 
Schwann: "Journey to Everywhere" is a non-fictional account of the authors travels with Terence and Dennis McKenna, Rupert Sheldrake, Ralph Abraham plus many interesting characters and Psychonauts. BOOK 

Patrick) Thanks for the feedback. I felt I had done a sufficient amount of fact-checking on this issue before posting my thoughts, but of course there is always another layer of information, particularly in psychedelic circles. I'm not sure why Dennis would have to remove the paragraph in its entirety because Terence later took shrooms. It would have been enough to remove the claim that he never did mushrooms again. The story of the bad trip is – I presume – still valid, and of great interest to Terence's many admirers.
I'll see if I need to rewrite something in my earlier post, but most of it was just general reflections.

10'29 "I wonder how long it took to emerge, the psychedelic...It seems such a strange notion that we can distance psychedelic from psychology." COMMENT

10'29 "Also evident in the manifesto is an appealing subcultural and anarchistic thread. 
For example, Grey sees witchcraft as rhizomatic as opposed to hierarchic."

10'29 "In short, the book is written primarily for people with one foot inside the door, and one of its main objectives is to provide these fine men and women with the tools and knowledge needed to develop a fully-blossomed psychedelic lifestyle." INTERVIEW 

10'29 "Both these elements go directly against the dogmas and hierarchies of Christianity, Judaism and Islam." INTERVIEW

Outpourings of a Mushroom October 2014 pt 6

10'21 "9/11" as significant as "the birth of Jesus Christ" TWITLONGER

"I don't know the truth, I just know I'm being lied to." "Do you think it's even possible?" VIDEO 

May 12, 2006, the "9/11" commissary Richard Clark, the BIGGEST lying scumbag when it comes to "9/11", on Real Time with Bill Maher, word-for-word: "All these conspiracy theories have two basic problems. One, they believe the government is competent. And, two, they believe the government can keep a secret."

Maher *annoyed*: "Well, let me ask you then, because everywhere I go, people say to me, 'Why don't you cover on your show what really happened on 9/11? Why don't you talk about the fact that a missile was what brought down Flight 93, and that the World Trade Center was a planned explosion?'
Do you believe any of those conspiracy theories? Do you think it's even possible?"

Cornel West: "No, I don't. I don't believe it. But I know the world is a mysterious place.
Which means I'm open to coordinated activity in secret places. But I don't believe in conspiracy."

problem #1: people have no idea what government in fact is. what it really consists of
problem #2: the biggest gatekeepers for the corporate system are professional journalists themselves. together will all other careerists. actually, there is not one profession which was an effective opponent for the global supremacy of Jesuitism

If Maher would even start to think 'What if this was possible?' he'd lose his show in a jiffy.
And a music guy who calls himself legend cannot be anything else than a full-time opportunist.

The "War on Terror" in practice: Every single human in the whole wide world who's inclined to oppose a World Political Authority must be defeated. Everywhere and under all circumstances. WIKIPEDIA
THAT is "9/11".
About as significant as the Nativity of Jesus, "the birth of Jesus Christ".
I am not joking.

10'21 "Everywhere I go, people say to me, 'Why don't you cover on your show what really happened on 9/11?" TWEET 

10'21 @lifessubatomic very funny, JWL. very funny
@cosmopinciotti I'm still amused you responded to it
11'05 @lifessubatomic Do you check your tweets for originality before publishing them?
"Want to see who reads your tweets?" BLOG POST
@cosmopinciotti no

"it is through other people, in our relationships, that we confront ourselves"
10'21 @DeniseLescano if you want to sharpen a thing, you need another one... BOOK

10'22 you'll find the answer to this topic in the "hot and swollen kingdom within the woods"...
@cosmopinciotti @MichaelaChung1 It's not that big of a deal. Thank you though.
@lifessubatomic and if it was a big deal, it would always be just fifty percent of it, I know
@cosmopinciotti and you know that change is the most common constant.
@lifessubatomic but only if there is something that could change.
if there exists nothing or little, the question of change's quite obsolete

10'22 "I was born a perfectionist, meaning I am open to constructive criticism!
Hate mail, love letters, rant notes, whatever! Send them my way."

10'22 @chrismurphys Islam was never anything else than Catholicism for the Arabs – same story... except they won't have some sort of Protestantism

10'22 Why are you making such a big deal out of that our governments have turned two world-famous skyscrapers into city volcanos live on TV, huh?!
11'13 @cosmopinciotti that's why TWEET "9/11" is as significant as "the birth of Jesus"! TWEET

10'22 "work the kinks out...why limit ourselves...Let's face it – we live in a patriarchal, sex-negative society. This breeds ignorance and fear."
10'23 "our society is obsessed with sex, but for the most part mainstream culture either avoids frank discussion about sex" ARTICLE

10'22 kink had to become a fairy tale to kneele before the mainstream
@cosmopinciotti kneele?
10'22 @remittancegirl kneele, yes.
kink had to become soft as vanilla to get heard and accepted by the mainstream-minded... "cliché to the max"

"Hoping is pretty exhausting."
10'23 @Sarcasticsapien give somebody hope, and they'll do whatever you tell them. this is how it works. on any level. in non-psychedelic societies

10'23 FIRE was founded in 1999 after the overwhelming response to the book The Shadow University WEBSITE

Annual Causes of Death in the U.S. 10'23 -pic* @DabDaily The War On Marijuana
Or: Stoners Are The Real Terrorists TWEET

"Okay. Here's the thing. No."
10'23 @Corey_Dawn no you know the thing is this: if you can handle #Nine11 you can handle anything.
everything becomes clear, bit by bit @tlthe5th

"Yes I'm A Christian. I Love My Savior, Taylor Swiftsus Christ. Amen."
10'23 @horroraf celebrities – the ever-present, modern cult of personality: a very very Christian thing.

10'23 The Philanthropy News Digest on #Nine11: BLOG POSTS 

"A stolen tweet is just like a regular tweet except you're an asshole."
10'23 @slamdancenance "Do we need copyright on memes?"
Tweet theft is as trivial as people think that Twitter is, isn't it. ARTICLE 

"someone that is in love with your mind, someone that wants to undress your conscience"
10'24 @OutreDragon me too. it's the jackpot, I think

"I dreamt of you... BLOCK"
10'24 @LexeGrey "things we can't always see, because we exist at a level of scale, of experience, that hides them from us." ARTICLE

10'24 "this dramatic exhibition of practical inter-faith peace seeking among four major religions...under the Pope's sponsorship, set a precedent" ARTICLE

"Religion? Or Twitter? -pic*
'Follow me or burn in hell... Just remember that I love you. But seriously, I'll burn your ass.'"
10'24 @WarriorFreckled Saint and Satan Jesus Krishna

"The Hypocrisy of Government – Michael Taylor Monsanto/FDA"
10'24 -pic* @IaM_LucyJayn corporatocracy: the more important the corporation, the more involved they are in the corporate structure called government...

10'25 If the system swallows #Nine11, it will swallow pretty much everything.

10'25 "In Sex at Dawn renegade researchers Chris Ryan and Cacilda Jethá debunk almost everything we think we know about sex." WEBSITE

10'25 RT @devirani123456 "You're stripping my mind, and I am ashamed to admit that I'm unabashedly unashamed when I'm supposed to not to be so..."

10'25 "as the years passed, he became convinced that the way schools were was what society wanted" John Holt WIKIPEDIA

10'25 @Goddess_Cleo The Trivium for beginners: WEBSITE 

11'25 episode 248: The #TriviumMethod Applied – Voluntary #Communication (part 2 of 4, Process) PODCAST #NVC #nonviolentcommunication

"The things my internet flirt friend and I say, which we could never tweet…"
10'25 @LoraxOfSex @Feenohmenal Maybe you're right with your analogy. TWEET
Twitter will simply be what people see in each other.

10'25 @cnstantstranger you're right they're good. thanks! @space2live @failingjoyfully @PersonalityPhD @waitbutwhy @druidjournal @DrKellyFlanagan

10'25 @brenna_rhiannon Hallelujah! IDGAF if somebody follows or blocks me. Quality is all that matters, nothing else

10'25 @failingjoyfully Sweet, honest, correct, beautiful – I am impressed.
One can sense the accurate texture of your "banana skin" in every word.

10'26 Uncertainty may in principle not serve as a complimentary ticket for talking rubbish PHOTO

"In general, the heart seems to have a more reliable memory for what benefits the psyche than does the head" Jung
10'26 Have we an idea what "the heart" actually is? TWEET

"I am free to disagree with your opinion – you don't get to silence me because you choose to take my opinion personally."
10'26 @failingjoyfully Have you perhaps heard of the World Café yet? TWEET

10'26 "I really dislike TED. For what it's worth, there's nothing I dislike more about it than the cult of the nauseous Sir Ken Robinson." BLOG POST 

10'26 "Today TED is an insatiable kingpin of international meme laundering – a place where ideas, regardless of their quality, go to seek celebrity, to live in the form of videos, tweets, and now e-books. In the world of TED – or, to use their argot, in the TED 'ecosystem' – books become talks, talks become memes, memes become projects, projects become talks, talks become books – and so it goes ad infinitum in the sizzling Stakhanovite cycle of memetics, until any shade of depth or nuance disappears into the virtual void...Since any meaningful discussion of politics is off limits at TED, the solutions advocated by TED's techno-humanitarians cannot go beyond the toolkit available to the scientist, the coder, and the engineer. This leaves Silicon Valley entrepreneurs positioned as TED's preferred redeemers. In TED world, tech entrepreneurs are in the business of solving the world's most pressing problems. This is what makes TED stand out from other globalist shindigs, and makes its intellectual performances increasingly irrelevant to genuine thought and serious action." BLOG POST 

10'26 the figure of a future researcher TUNNEL

"One story tells of the posthumously-published life's work of literary scholar Harold Loomis (Legends of Memory, 383 pp.) whose painstaking close readings of Marcel Proust and Victor Hugo, James Joyce and Henry James, reveal in great detail the mundane contexts of these authors' master texts: 'Loomis claimed to know what Joyce has eaten the day he penned the final lines of The Dead.' Ultimately, however, he discovers (it is suggested), buried deep within the literature he is reading, 'the figure of a future researcher...who Loomis recognized, probably too late, as the figure of his own self already contained in the texts he was reading.' Likewise, The Purgatory Press provides a mirror to the reader: as we scan its catalogue we imagine ourselves reading the books it describes, but because those books are missing we suddenly realize ourselves alone with only blurb for company."

"Culbert's slim volume is well worth cracking, not so much to find resolution (in the sense of 'cracking a case') as to follow the cracks, the twists and turns of chatter and plot, the promise of meaning and its ironic inversion. This is a truly great book, which teaches us the virtues of close attention and the rewards of quiet focus on the pleasures of the text." BLOG POST

"Sarcasm is the shield, intelligence the dagger."
10'26 @TheAlexP definitely too gladiatorial
intelligence is no guarantee against stupidity and being sarcastic in most instances just a workaround

10'27 "The shittiest thing about the fog is that when you're in the fog, it blocks your vision so you can't see that you're in the fog." Fuck that mother foggin' fog! ARTICLE

10'27 Some people seem to love their hate.

10'27 Why is it that schools treat kids like mini adults? BLOG POST 

10'27 Creative People BLOG POST 

10'27 Love Is Everything BLOG POST 

"Tell me something that's true that very few people agree with you on."
10'27 @OutreDragon Contrarianism at its finest: I'll tell you something no one agrees with me on. 
"9/11" and "11/9" '89 are part of the same strategy
@cosmopinciotti what happened in 89?
10'27 @OutreDragon Nothing. Did something happen in 2001?
I'm joking, you know TWEET No, this is the real dimension of #Nine11!

10'27 Ed Caruthers: "Shouldn't answers to this question be displayed from least upvotes on top to most upvotes on the bottom?" QUORA

10'27 burning bridges is good for you

10'27 "hard work is woefully overrated.
laziness coupled with efficiency and a dash of cleverness is a much better alternative" QUORA 

10'27 "how could you mesh well with anything, if you don't want to make sense at all?
this kind of freedom must be nightmarish!" -lis- 08'02

"What if connection with others is just a way to feel safe?
You know what? We can believe whatever we want, but how much of it is true?"
@anaturaldreamer our beliefs are true to the extent we believe them.
10'27 @kscutiepie I'd like to apologize for my hasty assumption.
actually, you are saying pretty much the same... TWEET don't you.
@cosmopinciotti It's not an easy subject is it?
I'm grateful to be able to exchange ideas with others. Have a great day.
10'27 @kscutiepie I'm really sorry about that. and yes, it's hellishly complicated and crazily foggy.
which makes it so adventurous on the other hand

"I prefer vague tweeting for broad interpretation and relevance."
10'27 @ExistentialINFJ 04'06'13 Oh no. How.....! *exciting squeek*